Two more weeks

It is really starting to feel like all I do is live my life in two week increments. Even more so than when we actually get a good cycle going. Waiting, anticipating, more waiting, more anticipating.

We went in for my appointment on the 5th, and the cyst has shrunk by about half. It was measuring close to 44mm and now it's down to 23mm. Better half than none.

I'll be staying on the bcp for another two weeks, and then I'll go back in on the 19th for another ultrasound. Guess I'll find out what it feels like to have a 50+ day cycle. This is unfamiliar territory for me. I used to be a regular 28-day cycle girl.

Good news in all of this is I don't have to self-medicate (injections) while hubby is out of town for a week! That was one thing I wasn't looking forward to, even though I had a friend at work lined up to help if need be.

Could this cycle get any more weird?

Alright - I think I've taken this whole break thing fairly well. All things considered.

As I've clearly established, ovulating is not my problem. Heck, I even seem to do it through BCPs. I should have expected it, but it didn't even cross my mind. CD31 gets here and along comes the bleeding. I'm not talking full on AF bleeding, but none the less, it's more than spotting. (Did I mention I was out of town and the spotting started on a Saturday after clinic hours?)

OMG! What do I do? I'm not supposed to go in for another 5 or 6 days for my next ultrasound to check on the cyst. There is no one to call. Seriously, what do I do?

Wow! Some how, I made the right decision. I took that night's pill and Sunday night's pill too. Just in case. What harm could it do, really? After a couple of rounds of phone tag I finally got word from my RE's office that I did the right thing in continuing on with the meds. While my body is busy doing its own thing, we are hoping that my brain is taking its cues from the hormones and not allowing my body to fully take over.

I only need to make it to Thursday, then hopefully we can bring this nightmare cycle to a close. When it's all said and done, it'll be about 38 days long. That's enough. **Remember - this was supposed to be that 'mini-cycle' to get rid of the cyst.**

Are you kidding me?

Seriously. This has to be some kind of a cruel joke.

I've been on BCPs for 18 days now. CD3-21. I go in for my US this morning, hoping the cyst is gone. Good news is all I want to hear and all I get is more bad news.

The residual debris/cyst is gone. Yeah! But, I have an even bigger cyst over on the other ovary. What? How is this possible? I thought my ovaries were supposed to be sleeping.

There was no blood work done, so we can't confirm, but the nurse actually thinks somehow I managed to ovulate through the BCPs.

Craziness! So, tonight instead of going to bed without any more BCPs, I will take a new kind. For two more weeks. So much for a forced mini-cycle. We are holding off AF for a while longer until we can better manage those ovaries.

When will this nightmare end?

Tomorrow is US day!

Finally. Cycle day 21 and the ultrasound I've been waiting for. I didn't think it would ever get here. I have been taking BCPs since cycle day 3 in hopes that nasty residual cyst/debris will disappear.

Looking back, my last medicated cycle started on March 30th. Even though these last few weeks have gone by really slow, it just doesn't seem like it's been that long since we were doing all those injections.

Hopefully I'll have good news to share after my appointment tomorrow.
Good night.

** crosses fingers **

Where am I?

Wow. For the first time in a very long while, I actually had to look at FF (Fertiity Friend) to know what cycle day I was on. Today is cd12 and my chart hasn't been updated for ten days. That is 10 days without waking to take my temp. Only nine more days until the ultrasound monitoring of the cyst.

I am filled with anxious excitement over what results may come from the ultrasound.

Can't we just get this show on the road?

How could I forget?

The best part about this bcp mini-cycle thing is I am forced to put down the thermometer! Hallelujah!

What's the sense in charting when my ovaries are sleeping and there isn't even a chance of ovulating? Besides, we can pretty much bank on AF arriving within about 3 days after I take the last pill.

Ahhhh...this is one thing I've really wanted to do for a while, but I haven't been able to walk away from. Somehow I feel in control when I take my temp everyday. It's nice to know exactly what is going on and where I am in my cycle.

It felt so good to be able to sleep in on Sunday and not have to wake up at 5:00am just to take my temperature!

I'm not promising I won't take it back out, but it sure is a nice change. I've been waking up at 5am daily for 16 months.

Shhhhhh....

be very quiet, my ovaries are sleeping.

Yesterday morning I went in for a cd3 ultrasound. I was so excited to get started on another round of injectables. Wrong! Ultrasound revealed there is still a cyst present. This is the first time an "off-cycle" did not get rid of the cysts.

Since the cysts did not go away on their own, we are doing a forced mini-cycle. I have to go back on BCPs for 16-18 days and then we'll go in for another ultrasound to determine if the cyst is gone.

This is actually sort of a good thing. Instead of wasting 3 cycles in a row due to the cyst(s) and hubby being out of town, we are thrown into this calendar game.

We need to get the timing just right as we'll be out of town for the weekend during a critical window of this cycle and then an out of town business trip for hubby coming quickly there after. Hopefully this mini-cycle will put time on our side instead of working against us.

So please, shhhh...my ovaries need their quiet time.