One month from today

March 26th is the big day! We meet the new RE and have our IVF consultation. Four more weeks (and a day) and we'll be there.

Last week I completed my new patient paperwork and got that mailed off along with the release forms going to my old doctor and the urologist. Hopefully by the time our appointment is here the new clinic will have all of our previous records.

It still feels weird to be on a break, but it just makes the most sense. Why waste insurance dollars when we can move on to bigger and better treatment. In my heart, I know this is the right decision.

Come on March 26th!

My World in Pictures

Here's something a little different today thanks to the Blogger's Challenge.

1. What is your first name?


2. When is your birthday?


3. What kind of car do you want?


4. Where did/do you go to school?
Close enough!

5. What is your favorite season?


6. What is your favorite type of shoe?


7. What is your status?


8. What is your favorite movie?


9. What is your favorite song?


10. Who is your favorite Disney character?


11. What is your favorite clothing line?


12. What is your favorite vacation destination?


13. What is your favorite dessert?


14. What is your favorite letter?


15. What are you most afraid of?


16. What is your favorite TV show?


17. What annoys you the most?


18. What is your job?
(for now - aka unemployed)

19. What is your favorite animal?


20. How old are you?


Wanna play? Here's how:
1. Go to photobucket.com
2. Type in your answer for each question into the PhotoBucket search bar.
3. Only use the first two pages. Choose your favorite photo to represent your answer.
4. Copy the html and paste it here.
5. You can only answer in picture form

A new chapter is about to be written...

it's time for us to admit defeat. We can't do this on our own, we can't do this with the help of IUI. It's time to move on to IVF.

Luckily with the new year came new insurance that includes IVF coverage. Unfortunatley my current RE does not do IVFs, so we have to switch clinics and find a new doctor. Our first IVF consultation with a new RE isn't until March 26th, so we've got about 6 weeks to wait. I might see what else I can find out there, but at least we have this one on the books for now.

Six weeks seems like such a long ways away, but I know it will go by fairly quickly.

Half way there

It's been a pretty uneventful week since the IUI last Friday. I had an ultrasound on Tuesday and got to see a nice shot of my empty ovaries and the corpus luteum. Funny how only days before they were full of follicles just ready to pop. This was the first time I'd been in for an ultrasound after ovulation and seen them at this stage.

Today is 8dpIUI. I'm pumped up on progesterone in the form of Prometrium plus an extra 2500iu hCG the day of the IUI and twice more this week. I'm feeling lots of pressure, some bloating and overall discomfort, but nothing to unbearable.

By this time next week we should know the outcome of our 5th IUI.
*fingers crossed*

IUI #5 - In the morning

Wow - it's been a while since I've posted any updates.

First off, I guess I should consider myself pretty lucky. I only had a 29 day cycle after our loss in December. I've seen some girls say they go 6-8 weeks before their next cycle starts. I'm glad that my cycles still remain fairly regular with all I've put my body through over the past two years.

Yesterday was cd9 and I did my Ovidrel trigger. IUI will be tomorrow morning around 9am. That might seem early, but we started stims on cd2 again this month so I did get a full week of injections in before triggering.

We also played with my dose a little this time. Instead of starting off with Menopur for 4 days and then switching to Follistim, we only did Follistim this time. This was a first. It's too early to tell if it made a difference, so we'll see!

As of Tuesday, cd8, I had some pretty good looking follies growing. There was an 18, 16.5, 15, 14, 12 and 11. The biggest three are my primary follies and the ones we expect to do something, but who knows, that 14 could also catch up given an extra couple of days to grow. My lining was also looking good at 7.6mm. My RE would like to see it 8.0mm by the time of the IUI so chances are pretty good I'd be above that by Friday.

We also talked about some other form of progestone supplements in my luteal phase. I'm curious to see what he tweaks as far as that goes.

By this time tomorrow I'll be head on into another 2ww. Testing should be around Feb 8th. I'll keep you all posted!

In memory of our angels

For Christmas we had 2 angel ornaments on the tree. Now that the tree is down, we didn't really have any sort of memorial for the babies that we lost.

While searching online for the "Hope" guy, I also found this figurine. "Miss You" seemed like a very subtle way of showing that we still think of what has been lost.

The place I ordered "Hope" from actually called when I was on my way to Hallmark to get this piece. They were out of stock, and it would be about 3 weeks before it would be available.

Luckily, Hallmark had both of them so now I've got both of them along with the "Together" figurine from our wedding displayed in our living room.

What happened to my Hope?

I have been pretty hard on myself and really negative lately in the weeks following the m/c.

I saw this Willow Tree figurine called "Hope" in someone's bio this weekend, and it kind of hit home that I need to find my hope again.

Hope is all we have right now. I can't let it fade. This morning I did a quick web search, found and ordered one of these little guys.

My hope right now is that when it arrives it helps to get me out of this funk that I'm in and brings me to a better place.